by First Signal · 2024
The song “Still Pretending” by First Signal is about struggling to move on from a lost relationship, feeling empty and lost without the other person, and admitting to still pretending everything is okay while grappling with the pain and longing for what once was.
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‘Still Pretending’ by First Signal is a song about missing someone and the struggle of letting go. We’re going to explore the feelings and ideas in this song together, so stick around if you want to understand why it hits so hard. ⬇️
️ The music paints a somber world—one where gardens bloom unseen and empty streets echo with longing. There’s a sense of time slipping by, colored by heartache and an inescapable loneliness.
The chorus is a raw outpouring: “Where should I go without you now? I fall at your feet and scream out loud / Don’t wanna let go and I’m not proud / That I’m still pretending.” We feel the narrator’s desperation, clinging to memories and refusing to accept the loss, even as pride crumbles away. The repetition of “still pretending” stings like salt in an open wound, a confession we’ve all whispered to ourselves in the dark—yes, we hear it, and yes, we relate.
In the verses, vivid lines like “Flowers in the garden bloom for no one” and “With all these pictures in my mind” deepen the story, showing us a world colored by absence—life goes on, but it’s hollow, almost ghostly. The narrator’s blindness without their loved one and the silence that’s left behind creates a vacuum where nothing else matters, highlighting the suffocating nature of grief and denial. We see someone grappling with things left unsaid, haunted by what could have been, all while desperately trying to keep up the charade of being okay.
At its heart, “Still Pretending” isn’t just about heartbreak—it’s about the messy, imperfect process of moving on, or sometimes, not moving on at all; it’s that universal ache of holding onto hope while knowing deep down, it’s time to let go.
The real magic of First Signal’s song lies in how it turns the act of pretending—something we all do—into a vulnerable, shared moment, reminding us that sometimes, the bravest thing is admitting we’re not ready to say goodbye.
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